Dear Future Husband~

Dear future husband,

I never thought of writing a letter to you but ever since I was wandering around the web, I've read through a lot and lots of letters from other women to their future husband too so I insist to write mine to you. I'm not sure whether you will be reading this letter one day but this I promise you, we will read this letter again once I am officially yours. :)

At this very moment of my life, I have no idea who you are and what you do for living. I have no idea if I ever met you, whether we're friend or maybe you're just a stranger that I might get to know with one day. I have no idea whether you live in Miri or staying some where else far far away from me. I have no idea if you know Jesus or you're just a free thinker that doesn't belief in anything. But one thing for sure, I hope you'd put God as a priority in your life. But I'm pretty sure you're a Christian cause that is why I am marrying you in future right? :)

I am so excited upon my awake every morning, cause each days that passed by bring me closer to you and the day we'll met and get to fall in love with each other. Even though our love haven't even begun yet but tell you what, I think about you on a daily basis. I think about you the most before I went to bed because that is when I started to prayed for you before I sleep. Yea, I prayed for us. Even though I have no vision of your face yet, but I prayed that God will lead your way to me soon.

I often wonder how would you look like on our wedding day, I'm sure you will be the most handsome guy on earth! And that is when my heart speak, "You are the most excellent choice I ever made in my life..." . And I can visualize how your eyes shines so bright staring straight at me with my white wedding gown walking down the aisle with my dad guiding my way to you infront of all our family in a church. At that very moment, the world stop turning for a while. I am the most luckiest woman alive to have you by my side.

But in marriage, it's not all about the sweet sweet things we often see in the movie. I'm sure we'll gonna fight a lot. Cause, I'm good at it! :p but tell you what, I never wanted us to fight but sometimes when things get rocky, we'll learn to appreciate each other more. So please, don't let me fight alone. We're in this together so never leave me even when you can't stand listening to me arguing. Just let me talk until I'm done cause I do get tired of talking and that is when I will stop mumbling. You know I did that because I love you too much. :)

Have you ever wonder how many kids will we have? ;) I don't mind at all if it's two, three, four or even more. As long as you'll give all your unconditional love with full of attention on us, I'm sure we can make it to a perfect family. In you I trust, that is why I am marrying you at the very first place because you are the man I choose to be the father of my children. :)

Do know this dear future husband, I love you. I love the man you will be one day, the man I will stand beside and I respect. The man I will surrender my life to, the only man I will love with all my heart. I am nowhere near the woman God has called me to be, so I need to prepare myself before I'm ready for you. But still, I am waiting and I am holding on to my romantic and naive heart, knowing I will give it to you one day and fully trusting you to keep it safe.

So, wherever you are right now, I'll pray to God to take a good care of you until we meet. :)

Ramblings of My Heart....Its Not To Be Understood

As I sit here and cry from my state of mind, I realize that its past my time....
I am ready for love, it has to be sent from heaven above, I am ready to walk hand in hand and even sometimes play in the sand. I can see that I am unique just  by the people that I meet. I often wonder should I start my own meet n greet. Time is ticking and changing and I feel like a forever embracement. I want the ministry with him, and I want the love to be real. I stood through abuse and misery, I stood with fake friends coming and going. I stood with people just feeling sorry for me, I stood with no family support. I felt like I jumped through a thousand hula hoops. Last year I was isoalted, I was abused, I was rejected and I suffered in alot of silence. God carried me through, and thats where my true healing took me all the way through.I saw something that made my heart smile, and it has lasted for quite a while.. Emotions are in check, maybe because GOD is on deck. I work but no check, but favor and grace and mercy stand in place. I feel oout of place, no one to talk to, no one to call, so this is how my love life with GOD lasted, because he has been there thru it all. I sat on the bench and was never called into play, but i know GOD has the final say. He is bringing me up before the many, nations I will speak to.. Everyone who discredited and rejected me, will see that he GOD is my resource. I am eager to learn and learning forgiveness. I hear people talk about how they do this and that and I all I can is wish I had that chance with my family, my mother and my son. My family resents me, but I have learned that I cant change things so I might as well accept it and keep it moving. I hated myself for a long time, because I was always different. I am ready to be me.. I want to love him forever, I want to travel together, I want to make love together, but most importanytly I want to minster together. I am already laboring for my king, he is in my presnece. I feel him so close, yep i dont loose hope. He called me his prophetess and my king his prophet.. Thats deep right there. I am ready what more can I say, today I stand up and open my heart up and is willing to receive all that he has for me.
I have been buried alive, so called friends past me by. I have been wounded and those who hear wont even lend me their ear. I m a prophet and many pull on me, but instead of trusting GOD they rather trust me. No The glory belongs to GOD, he is my all.
2 be cont.... My cries I shall not hide...

Ill be back....

Letting Go!

says: It breaks my heart how my son treats me, but I do know one thing is GOD is greater and I am letting GO and letting GOD, He has put a knife in my back for years and years and half of the problem is because people instilled in him when he was younger how bad of a mother I was.. However since GOD has redeemed me and set me from my past.. I am not going to keep allowing these wounds to re-open and cause some unnecessary pain...I am letting go and letting GOD.. Willl love him to life, but will not tolerate being cussed out and lied on and treated any kind of way.. I am freeing myself from the pain and I am praying that he returns back to his first LOVE!!!! Dariyon I will always love you, but until you can respect me and treat me like a mother should be treated, keep your comments and business to your self.. I have nothing but love for you.... However enough is enough.. Its time to heal and be real......God doesn't like ugly he serves justice in many ways... Keep ya mouth off of the anointed ones....I am freeing myself..
For you mothers that can feel my pain, say a prayer for me as I say a prayer for you... I am breaking this cycle... I fully give it over to GOD for he is my healer and my protector and my provider....

Journey To Healing - GOD'Z GURLZ Bible-based webmag for women

Journey To Healing - GOD'Z GURLZ Bible-based webmag for women

Lady In Waiting.........

So, I am reading this book "Lady in Waiting," and I would love to share some quotes from this book. For all you women out there, YELL amen out loud if you think these are COMPLETELY true. No matter who is listening. People may think your crazy, who cares? You are crazy.

"Daily, throughout the world, women's hearts are broken because they allow their emotions to run ahead of their commitments. As a result, they end up emotional cripples, angry at the men who failed to live up to their emotional fantasies."

"At a girls night out, a single woman shared how she used to resent spiritual monitoring from her mom in relation to her fantasies. She used to dread her mother's calm and reserved response to her dramatic presentation of the date she had with the man of her dreams. Her mom, a vivacious woman, seemed so restrained and even a little cynical when responding to her daughters "bubbly babbling" about Mr. Right. How could such an outgoing, positivie, and uplifting mom be so reserved when responding to the dreamy-eyed chatter about the arrival of the man worth waiting for? Did her mom have information of which the daughter was unaware? Had she hired a detective to follow the man of her daughter's dreams and find incriminating information? Of course not! This mom was extremely wise in monitoring her own response so her daughter would not get excited and distracted by a prospect who might never become a reality."
 - this sounds exactly like my mom.. thank you mom for always letting me know about your red flags, and your discomforts when meeting my guy friends, or the boyfriends I have had. You are THE BOMB . COM.

"Unmonitored chatting can lead to major defrauding" - heck yes.

"Not that I speak from want; for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." (Phil 4:11-13)

Can You Say FoodiePal?

So there is a new thing in town, well actually its not so new, its new to me though. I have joined an awesome group called Foodie Pal, it is a food exchange program and its really neat, you meet others and you then get a goodie package, and you also send one out... Here is some more info about it:

And now it's time for some details about Foodie Penpals.  In case you’re a new reader, here’s a reminder of what the program is all about:

-On the 5th of every month, you will receive your penpal pairing via email. It will be your responsibility to contact your penpal and get their mailing address and any other information you might need like allergies or dietary restrictions.
-You will have until the 15th of the month to put your box of goodies in the mail. On the last day of the month, you will post about the goodies you received from your penpal! 
-The boxes are to be filled with fun foodie things, local food items or even homemade treats! The spending limit is $15. The box must also include something written. This can be anything from a note explaining what’s in the box, to a fun recipe…use your imagination!
-You are responsible for figuring out the best way to ship your items depending on their size and how fragile they are. (Don’t forget about flat rate boxes!)
-Foodie Penpals is open to blog readers as well as bloggers. If you’re a reader and you get paired with a blogger, you are to write a short guest post for your penpal to post on their blog about what you received. If two readers are paired together, neither needs to worry about writing a post for that month. 
-Foodie Penplas is open to US & Canadian residents.  Please note, Canadian Residents will be paired with other Canadians only. We've determined things might get too slow and backed up if we're trying to send foods through customs across the border from US to Canada and vice versa. 

So as you can see its not that complicated its actually pretty fun! So come on over and join us....I love getting mail and I am sure you do as well!!! So what are you waiting for?

SO this is like Christmas every month, not only do you get a goodie box but you learn more about the foods that come from a different part of the United States! So I was blessed to be connected with Elyse Nezbeda who has a beautiful and insightful  blog, please head over and read her blog she has some exciting and yummy recipes on her blog..So click on her link and head over!http://sandbetweenmysneakers.wordpress.com/

So one bright morning my doorbell rang and It was my package, I felt like a little kid, so here is what Elyse sent me, and it was a beautiful blessing

So after I starred at the box for a while, I was like Andrea go ahead and open it....

So after taking everything out here is what we have!

I love spices, I love to cook, so here is some Fresh Bayou Blackening Spice, already used it in my gumbo... YUMMY! Will be trying this on some more stuff!

Then I am a big fan of water of all KINDS now, So i love the fact that she thought of me to send me some water, there were two bottles in my box one flavor was Peach and the other was Strawberry Kiwi both were sparkling water, unsweetened and this is what I need, so this was a big hit, A hint is all I tasted too..LOL but my body wants more and more of it...:)

SO then there was some Vegetable Chips.. I am now a big fan of veggies so she went and found something healthy that I can munch on, and they are so yummy, never had veggies in a chip form, but they were so tasty, and I almost ate in them in one setting! Will be on a hunt for these too!

And then there were these big choc cremes, made from Berger Family, and it is a family owned restrautn from her local, so ask me how long did these last?!?! NOT EVEN HALF OF A DAY!I had to work hard to work these babies off... I did share one...LOLOL with my daughter! These were yummy I even warmed up one... So yummy!!!!!! Would love to have some more of these...

The note topped it off, she expressed how she enjoyed meeting me and she explained every product and hoped I enjoyed it... She was a blessing and I will keep up with her, because she eats whats right, and shares it with the world.... SO again thank you Elyse, your box was amazing!!!!!
Well thats all for now, my box is only a memory but I have made a lifetime friend..... Foodie Pal has been a big blessing to my life and I hope you can join us!!!!

So if you want to see what I sent, head on over to http://spinachandskittles.com/

So now that my blog is AWAKE, check back and see whats happening over here in my PrettyWings Spot, and if you need more questions, or want to read about more Foodie Pal head over to The CEO, she is such a sweetie... Im thankful that she came up with this idea! SO head on over and see what is going on with THE LEAN GREEN BEAN! http://www.theleangreenbean.com/

Thats all now, thank you for stopping in where everything I touch becomes beautiful... PrettyWings N Things!

Who Said A Cookie Sheet Couldnt Be Cute?

SO as we know the name of my scrapping line is PrettyWings, where all things become pretty with a touch of GOD.. Well my line of scrapping reflects the love GOD has for me and the creativity he has entrusted me with.. There is so much I have done but have not posted, so stay tuned things are about to get flowing and soaring over here...For everything there is a time and a season! 

SOOOOOOO! My good friend showed me how to make these awesome cookie boards for many occasions..Making this is not as hard as it looks.. Stay tuned for a bog that entitles how to make and what all was used to make this.. I made this for a co-worker who is in college and she loved it! Just wanted to give you a pretty picture of 1 of 1000s of my work! Isn't it cute:?

Okay Soaring On,

Stay Tuned...PrettyWings